When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability... To be alive is to be vulnerable.
Madeleine L'Engle, "Walking on Water: Reflections on Faith and Art",

tea time. again.


Tea: true blueberry.
Cup: antique tea cup from Grandma Speciale
Thoughts while steeping: Smells like blueberry
Thoughts from first sip: pretty good.
Next step: add sugar.
Results: pretty good but not my favorite.



1. It's so noisy in my room. Some annoying person is mowing/weed-wacking nearby.
2. When I was little I was afraid of saying some words I though my mom had made up. Example: gutter (I'm not sure why I would ever need to use this word, but I specifically remember describing what it was, rather than saying it for fear I would look stupid), saline, and now weed-wacking...that just looks made up. If it is, I blame my mother.
3. Book Recommendation: Same Kind of Different As Me by Ron Hall and Denver Moore. It's amazing.
4. I just looked out my window to see where the noise was coming from. It's a little old man weed-wacking along our I feel bad. I take back #1.
5. I've started reading Harry Potter.
6. My family is having curried shrimp tonight. I'm jealous.
7. I'm trying to see how long I can go without doing laundry.

that's all.

oh Jane.


Dear Reader,
I love Jane Eyre. She is my hero.

beautiful people.

The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.
... Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

One Day.

"One day I will find the right words, and they will be simple."
Jack Kerouac

Happy Sunny Day.






“When you wake up in the morning, Pooh,” said Piglet at last,
“what’s the first thing you say to yourself?”
“What’s for breakfast?” said Pooh. “What do you say, Piglet?”
“I say, I wonder what’s going to happen exciting today?” said Piglet.
Pooh nodded thoughtfully. “It’s the same thing,” he said.”
-A.A. Milne



#1. I want to paint my nails this color.

#2. Do you look at your nails like this?...

#3. Or like this? (see mike, either way is feminine)
#4. I'm determined to stop biting my nails.

All My Devotion.


Beautiful Man
Beautiful God
You're more than worth my time
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
left unfulfilled
just for a time

and I know You don't come as easy as some
but I will watch and pray
I will watch and pray

Beautiful Man
Beautiful God
You're more than worth my time
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
left unfulfilled
just for a time

and I know You don't come as easy as some
but I will watch and pray
I will watch and pray

take it all
take it all
just give me Jesus
just give me Jesus

i don't want any other Lover
i don't want any other Lover

All of my devotion
Belongs to this man

All My Devotion by Kristene Mueller

don't worry. I'm back.

Yesterday was a crazy day. I almost skipped my class. I was in bed and thinking about turning my alarm off and sleeping in. Then I decided not to, jumped out of bed and got ready. I went to class and (yes, during the lecture) made a to do list. I got EVERYTHING (and then some) done on my list.

I haven't been this productive in months.

It was crazy. I cleaned the house, swept the floors (with a six inch broom since our normal one broke)*, washed/dryed/put away dishes, cleaned my room, rearranged my room**, cleaned the fridge, cleaned the bathroom, took out three bags of trash, washed my sheets, washed towles, washed rags, put away the valentines decorations, worked on Cascades stuff***, worked on homework, and started writing a paper.

If you weren't this productive yesterday, don't feel bad. The day before that I barely got out of bed (seriously).

And today I'm back. I only have 3 goals for today.
1. finish Cascades stuff***
2. finish paper
3. pack

so far...
1. I've written 1 paragraph.
2. sent a couple emails about Cascades stuff.
3. eaten lunch.

Yep. Yesterday was nice.

*elizabeth, I know. I know. But you can really sweep when you get back. :)
**I'm not sure I like it, but it's ok for now.
***I'm in charge of an Easter basket project with my church...probably more to come.

yes. that would be nice.


1.I think I would like to stay in bed. All day tomorrow.


3. I think I would like to hang out with April and Charis and snuggle with Anna Rose.

4. I think I would like to visit the Gasden Art Center soon.

5. I think I would like to climb inside the oven or dryer.

6. I think I would like to find a warm sunny spot outside to read a book.

7. I think I would like to skip brushing my teeth tonight.


9. I think I would like to teach kids art.

10. I think I would like to never go back to my art history class.

11. I think I would like for spring break to be at least 2 weeks long.

12. I think I would like to be a photographer for National Geographic.

13. I think I would like to jump on a trampoline.

14. I think I would like to take a long, hot shower.

15. I think I would like to visit the Louvre.


17. I think I would like to go camping.

18. I think I would like to start spring break right now.

19. I think I would like to grow 2 more inches.

20. I think I would like to eat some oreos.

21. I think I would like to have 100 followers.

22. I think I would like to go to the beach.

23. I think I would like to be tan. Or at least get some freckles back.

That's all. (For now).

p.s. The links are random things I found. enjoy.

Tea Time.

Tea: Raspberry Zinger.
Cup: petite mug.
Thoughts while steeping: yum.
Thoughts from first sip: yum.
Next step: add sugar.
Results: yum X 2
Next step: enjoy.
Results: amazing. new favorite.

3 more things.


dear printmaking,
you exhaust me.

I've been working on two projects in my printmaking class. I have (almost) never missed/skipped class and work hard while I'm there and still I've been going in extra. Last weekend I went in twice to finish my project. Then I went in Monday night from 5-9:30. It was due Tuesday so I went in early to finish-finish it. FINALLY. I'm done. I turned it in. I'm glad that's over. However, I am covered in crazy colors. Yesterday my arms looked bruised. I still have some red marks. My fingers and nails look black but upon closer inspection they are quite colorful.

2. speaking of being covered in crazy colors...

(You've probably seen this before...everyone seems to be obsessed with it)
I now plan on changing my major to "creating crazy music videos". That sounds perfect.

3. It's my dear friend Anna Renee's birthday today! Head on over to her blog to send her birthday wishes. :)

The Second Cup.

Tea: Black Cherry Berry
Cup: Mason Jar
Thoughts while steeping: not good.
Thoughts from first sip: Disgusting.
Next step: add sugar.
Results: better...ish
Next step: add ice
Results: bleh.



1. I have random thoughts that cannot be confined into normal sentences or paragraphs.

2. I am sick. And sick of being sick. I checked my posts from a year ago and found that I was sick for a while then too. (see here). I blame this time of year.

3. I called my mom and had a small emotional breakdown today.

4. My mom told me to go buy cough drops, zicam, and soup.

5. Then she said "but cough drops aren't your savior and neither am I, so lets pray."

6. I love her.

7. It's pretty easy to tell when a person doesn't feel well physically. She can tell when I don't feel well emotionally.

8. I cleaned my room today. Threw away a lot of tissues. Opened up the window to let the germs out. Hid in my bed because it's freezing.

9. I really want to watch Where the Wild Things Are. And I want to see the movie Adam. It looks good.

10. I want to upload my pictures but my computer isn't working.

11. I hate Comcast. With a fiery passion.

12. It's Anna Renee's birthday in 30 minutes!

13. I have eaten so much today. It's ridiculous.

14. I'm still hungry.

15. I'm very ready for spring break.

16. And the smell of Ocean Potion Lotion.

17. And 7/11 slurpees.

18. And Louis's BBQ.

19. I really want my hair to be long.

20. I really want to get my hair cut short (see here .

21. Are lip rings really bad for your mouth?

22. Not that I'm thinking of getting a lip ring...

23. Yesterday I flipped 3 eggs beautifully.

24. I'm on a search for ginger ale cough drops.

25. I am observing at an elementary school tomorrow.

26. I LOVE kids.

27. Last week Freddie drew a picture of me.

28. I hope it's not too cold tomorrow.

29. I'm wearing a dress.

30. I don't think I'm suppose to wear jeans there.

31. I've worn jeans twice.

32. You probably don't care about half the stuff I'm writing in this list.

33. I'm ok with that.