Jen Stark.


More Lists.

I love lists. I make lists for everything. From the very common shopping lists to the very effective pro-con lists (for all major decisions). With today being New Years Eve (just barely-12:30ish) I have been thinking about the new upcoming year. I have also been thinking about what has happened in 2008. I made a list. =] It was of all (or a lot) of new things I did this year. It was pretty long which made me happy because it's a shame to waste a year without many new experiences. But I've also gotten nervous because I know I will be doing much more in 2009. I am looking forward to many things that are quickly approaching, but I am much more comfortable with the things I did in 2008. Things that kept me close to home, near my family, and mostly in my comfort zone. I did branch out in a few ways and I definately feel like I have grown a lot over the past year...but I see more growth to come.

I'm reading a book by Ken Gire (one of my favorite authors) called The Divine Embrace. It compares a life with Jesus to a dance with Him. I don't know how to dance or what the next step is but I follow Jesus' lead and put all my trust in Him. There are different parts in the dance, some slow, some confusing, and you never know what will happen next. But with each step you learn a little more and you grow. Not only do you learn to trust your partner (or leader) but you learn to love Him.

As I enter this new year, I don't want to make lists of expectations, I want to follow Jesus' lead and grow. I don't want to look too far ahead and get nervous (and stumble) I want to keep my focus on Him. Let Him lead me in our dance.

Christmas (to do) List:


*make Christmas cookies
*finish finding/making presents
*make copies of Jungle Jam =]
*work on illustrations
*read (the twilight series...)
*clean my room/keep room clean
*spend time with family
*and friends
*not think about school
*watch Christmas movies
*sleep in
*listen to Christmas music
*hang picture (with/for my mom)

i'll probably think of more... that's good for now though.

The Girl Effect.

Eloise! (at Christmas Time)


"Bill's my best friend. He's an actor and wears red socks and I absolutely adore him." =]

please visit.


Labor of Love.

One shoe can change your life.

Modern Cinderella by kristenmay



I love kids. Even when they are annoying or wierd.

Today at kid's church I was sitting by this little girl, and we were all playing a game(?) on the big screen...there was a picture divided into 9 pieces and you would choose a piece and that part of the picture would disapear to reaveal the picture underneath...then we'd guess what the picture was underneath. (Does that make sense?) Anyways, a little boy picked a piece and it revealed a picture of baby Jesus in the manger. So the little girl beside me started laughing...and I asked what was funny and she said, "he picked the baby, which means he IS a baby." (more laughter) then she said, "You are what you eat!"

I'm not sure.

Here's a short record some funny things kid have said to me (or I've overhear):

(two 1st/2nd grade girls talking) "Boys just have no respect for us."

(a 2nd(?) girl asked me) "Do you think boys are a little bit obnoxious?"

(a 3rd grade boy was mad at someone and said) "It's a good thing I'm not allowed to KILL!"

those are the only ones I can remember right now...I'll keep my ears open for more good ones. =]

Friday Lessons.


I'm sure all of you are familiar with these photos. "Afghan girl". I recently learned something new (or releared, maybe I already new it and forgot), the girl is around 12 or 13 in the photo on the left! She looks so old. The photographer, Steve McCurry, found her in a refugee camp and then 17 years later found her once more. Her name is Sharbat Gula.

Today I also learned that free rice has many subjects! My new favorites: art and geography. Charis and I played the geography one for...a while, (I'm so easily distracted from studying).
But now I'm super smart :) and know basically every country in the world (haha).

I also have a question...(random? yes.)when you think of Humpty Dumpty, do you think he is an egg? WHY!? I have always pictured him as an egg. It NEVER says he is an egg...why do we think that? Strange.
That's it for today. When I learn something new, or when something exciting happens...
I'll let you know. =]

A Little Princess.


I will give thanks even when things are hard. I will have hope, I will be strong, and I will praise.



Right now, Charis and I are waiting for a turkey to finish cooking*. We have been placed in charge of turning off the oven at 1:00 am. During the past hour...we have been looking up old toys, dolls, cartoons, that sparked many childhood memories. (Yes, Charis is 8 years younger than me, so she didn't remember everything, but most of the toys were around our house when she was around:) So now I miss being little. It was so exciting to remember all of the toys I played with. There were some good ones! Here are some of my(our) favorites:

Popples, pound puppies, tea bunnies (I had the tulip one), cup cake dolls, original littlest pet shops(so cute!), maple town, my little ponies, polly pockets, glow worms, pony suprise, kitty kitty kittens(they purred), dreamland babies (where you'd call Nanny Annie), The Getalong Gang (cartoon)...

(littlest petshop commercial!)

(The Getalong Gang!)

Ahh, I love childhood. And memories. And cute toys.

*We are having a second Thanksgiving tomorrow for our Migrant workers who will be planting blueberries.

Happy Thanks Giving.

Thank you.


I've been trying to get done with my homework so I won't have any this holiday/weekend. But I'm taking a break to express my thankfulness. =] Since I haven't written in a while, I have collected a bunch of thankful thoughts.

Here they are:

handmade shopping, reading time, laughter, art, kid's church, holiday breaks, the end of the semester, my secret talent (mwahaha), petitions, music, e e cummings poetry, cough drops and cold medicine.

give thanks.


I am thankful for cool weather and a warm home. We had wassle(?) today, it's so good! I love Fall, unfortunately, I think I'm getting a cold... =[ But on a happy note, my sisters and I cleaned the house while my mom was away (it took us about 3 hours...sweeping, mopping, vacuuming, etc.) so now we have a nice, clean house.

Happy Friday.


I was very excited because today was my And it was quite lovely. In the morning I went with my momma to garage sales and thrift stores. Where I got a dress for a project in my Diversity class (another topic for another blog) and I got a book (The Giver). Then we went to Thee Kings and they had the (new?) Ted Dekker book (Adam) for $5.00 so I splurged. =] Then we came home and I took care of Anna Rose for a while, made 2 ipod cozies (new sales!), went to the post office to mail them, and went to the library. In the evening my mom and I ate Ramen noodles (not too many, we don't want to loose our hair) and watched Hello Dolly. So today, my thankfulness is for my mom. I love her. =]



I have a new life verse ( add to my list). It's from 2 Corinthians 9:12, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." I love that Jesus doesn't require or even want me to be strong. He takes me in my brokenness and makes me whole. I'm thankful that He is in control and that I don't have to be. (And I'm thankful that He is willing to constantly remind me of this).



In kid's church we are starting a new "theme": Thoroughly Thankful. Each week we pick leaves off a (fake) tree and write something we're thankful for on them. Then we tape the leaf to the wall to display them. This has given me the urge, as I'm walking by any tree, to pick off a leaf, write something I'm thankful for and let it blow away. Wouldn't it be exciting if all leaves had words of things people are thankful for on them. I love fall leaves...although we don't get many here. I am thankful for them. (Now I need to find a leaf and write..."I am thankful for this leaf").
ps. to share my thoroughly thankfulness, I'm going to blog about one thing I'm thankful for each day until Thanksgiving! Join in! Be thankful. =]



"Freegans are people who employ alternative strategies for living based on limited participation in the conventional economy and minimal consumption of resources. Freegans embrace community, generosity, social concern, freedom, cooperation, and sharing in opposition to a society based on materialism, moral apathy, competition, conformity, and greed. "

I have heard about people who go to restaurants and just get food out of the trash rather than ordering...I never knew that lifestyle(?) had a name. I'm both ammused and intrigued. It's an interesting concept.

Connie Talbot!

I get goosebumps listening to this. Connie is SEVEN! She won Britian's Got Talent (last year?)...because she's amazing! (and ADORABLE!) I hadn't heard of her before, we watched this video in my Diversity class today. happiness. =] favorite flower.


ohmygoodness. I love peonies. I want to have a bouquet like this at my wedding...when/if I have a wedding. So pretty! They make me happy.

Interview with Anna Renee.


After being interview by Anna Renee, I interviewed her back.

Kristen:Is there a risk in your own life that you feel you should have taken or should take, but didn’t/haven't?
Anna: Yes. Thanks for rubbing it in.

Kristen: When you were little what did you want to grow up to be?
Anna: It changed according to the season. When i lived in a brick house i think i wanted to be a princess. When me moved into the pink house, i wanted to be an actress. Then a zoo keeper. When we first moved to the house in which i am currently living i wanted to grow up and be a fashion designer/actress. When we painted this house grey i wanted to be a photographer. And so far, I have failed all of my childhood dreams, tremendously. Hopefully i'll grow up more.

Kristen: What is your favorite possession?
Anna: My favorite possessions (as in, the irreplaceable things i would grab at a moments notice...): my computer, my pottery from high school and my books. I love my computer because it is full of music and pictures and it connects me to the world. My pottery is special because it makes me feel accomplished. And my books inspire me and challenge me to dream. I'm pretty sure if you had to go through my bookshelf/my computer you would understand me a little better.

Kristen: If you could spend a day with any famous person, who would it be and why?
Anna: I would probably spend my day with Sister Wendy Beckett because she's a genious and could get us into all kinds of amazing museums where we could talk art.

Kristen: What is your love language?
Anna: I don't actually understand love languages yet...*google*According to my love language is

Score Love Language
6 Words of Affirmation
9 Quality Time
5 Receiving of Gifts
2 Acts of Service
8 Physical Touch

That makes sense. I feel really loved when i am spending one-on-one time with people. Ha ha. I guess i'm a touchy feely person. Hugs are my favorite. But at the same time, i don't want a touchy feely palsy walsy guy. Hmm...weird.

To find out more about Anna visit her blog at:



I’m Kristen, and I’m okay with that…


I am currently taking a painting class and I’ve recently discovered that I’m learning much more than how to paint. The class is pushing me by getting me out of my comfort zone. By being forced to paint in front of others I have learned a lot. I have learned about being vulnerable. I am not able to hide my mistakes and anyone can see them. I have to make a choice every time I paint. I have to choose to not be concerned about what others think of me (or my paintings). I have to forget about how many talented artists surround me. I have to remember that I’m not painting to get people’s approval or acceptance. I have to look beyond my abilities and search for the emotion behind art. I want to learn to express myself through art. I don’t want my expression to be me trying to impress others, or never being satisfied, or trying to be the best. I want my artwork to say something about me, and I want that something to be positive and real. I’m not learning to paint; I’m learning to grow and to be vulnerable. Art isn’t about being the best; it’s about being you, and being okay with that.


Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
Give me your life
Lust and the lies
The past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me
It's a mystery

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
I'm the giver of life
I'll clothe you in white
My immaculate bride you will be
Oh come running home to me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me

Well you've been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers it won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips
And you'll taste new life

Cause you're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us and it binds you to me

It's a mystery

Tenth Avenue North



meet lotta.



I love Fall. I love that it's November. The time change is a little weird and I haven't quite gotten (got? gotten?) used to it but I like the cool(ish)ness. I've had a pretty light week for school assignments so far...not really looking forward to this weekend though. But here's my update. =]

-I'm making my first quilt! My grandma has been here the last week and she's been teaching me.
-I tried to carve my pumpkin but my pumpkin failed me because it was too hard. I could hardly get the knife in it. (I made my mom try too, just to make sure it wasn't my lack of strength that was causing the wasn't). (It was a cute pumpkin too- it had pumpkin warts:)
-I bought a new pumpkin, it's a pale orange and really pretty...I'll hopefully be carving it soon.
-I started reading Leota's Garden, but I haven't gotten very far. I keep getting distracted.
-I returned to finish observing an ESOL (english for speakers of other languages...or something like that) class at BCC (I have to get observation hours for my Diversity class) and I was reunited with my friends from other countries. (Brazil, Pueto Rico, Germany, Saudi Arabia, and some others...) They are all so nice and friendly. I gave them my email address (the teacher's suggestion) so we can keep in touch!
-All politics/parties aside, I think it's super exciting that the we have a black man for a president.
-Anna Rose can walk far when we hold her hands!!!
-I'm in a group in my speech class and I was chosen to be the group leader! What? I'm not a leader, I'm a a sheep, I follow. And my group wanted me to have an important part in our next speech because I was apparently one of the best (according to them...I assure you I'm not a good speecher).
-I saw City of Ember with my sisters. It was really good! I was surprised, I love the book and was expecting the to be a lot different.
-I've decided not to use SR 46 for traveling farther that 10 minutes. Everytime I go somewhere on that road I get really lost...

Happy Fall.

Nov. 4th.


oh boy. Time to vote! =]
I'm not usually a fan of voting posters but I found some I like.



Well, a fun things have happened since I last wrote, but i'm not sure if i can remember them right now because I have a child attached to me. Yes, Anna (it would be kinda off if there was another kid attached to me). She has been going through one of those stages where she cries at everything and my mom is at her women's group and the minute she left Anna started bawling.
It's been 30 minutes and I am covered with her sweat, tears, snot, and food (she was eating before she started all the food in her mouth ended up on me). It's not pretty.She does have a signal that tells us when shes about to wail. She sticks her lip out really's a little bit adorable.

What? I've also lost my hearing due to the crying/screaming that has taken place in my ear.
So once I can peel Anna off of me I'll update you on the new things I've been up to.

=[ <----me
:*O <----anna



Harvest Festival Photos!



Pictures from our trip to the pumpkin patch.

Happy Fall.

I didn't get to write yesterday because our internet went down. =[

And today is the last day for 31 for 21! I can't believe October is already (almost) over!

I'm going with my family today to get pumpkins and then tonight is the Harvest Festival at church. I'll be working at some booth...I have no idea what I'm doing yet. But I know who I'll be, Princess Lolly (from Candyland)!!!

yes, a large group of people are being all the characters from Candyland, I'm so excited!

(I will definately post pictures!)

Book List.


I would like a vacation where all I would do is sit and untill then, I will make my book list.

The Divine Embrace by Ken Gire
Mansfield Park by Jane Austen
Leota's Garden by Francine Rivers
The Shack by William P. Young
Sex God: by Rob Bell

... I can't think of any others right now.
any suggestions?

brain overload.


I feel like if I think too much (or write too much) my brain will overflow and leak out the information I've worked hard to retain. So for the next few days (Thur. afternoon I'll be good-if I can make it till then) I'm going to have to stop speaking and stop thinking. I'll let you know how my new theory works.

Inspiration #1.


Untitled, C-print, 30x40 ", 2006

I don't even know how to respond to this.

EepyBird's Sticky Note experiment from Eepybird on Vimeo.

Buddy Walk Pictures.


Two cute children (with Down syndrome) dancing. =]

At the petting zoo....the iguana was Anna's favorite.

Miss Piggy was my favorite...



Well, I've been tagged (by elizabeth:)

here are the rules:
1. Link to the person that tagged you
2. Post the rules on your blog
3. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself
4. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs
5. Let each random person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.
6. Let your tagger know when your entry is UP

Here are 6 amazing(haha) things about me:

1. I love getting my eyebrows waxed. I love the pain...(odd, but true).

2. I am terrified of lizzards.

3. My favorite drinks are: 7/11 slurpees(!), diet cranberry ginger-ale, crystal light ruby red grapefruit juice, and an occasional jones soda.

4. I love to read (especially on rainy days:).

5. I'm bad at procrastinating (which means I don't procrastinate (for the most part)).

6. I can punch with my wrists really's called wristing, haha.

I will tag Anna and Sarah =]

(i'll be putting up my pictures from the Buddy Walk soon!)

Buddy Walk.

This weekend, my mom, sisters, and I are participating in a Buddy Walk! The purpose of a Buddy Walk is too raise awareness and promote understanding, acceptance and inclusion of people who have Down syndrome. Buddy Walkers also raise money through sponsers and donations and those funds go toward education, advocacy programs, and research.
October is Down syndrome awareness month and the Buddy Walk is a wonderful program that gets people active and aware.

In my Diversity class, we are giving a presentation on a "new experience", and I will be talking about the Buddy Walk. I'm gonna take lots of pictures, so I'll post some up here after the walk. =]
I'm so excited!



This past weekend, my family and I went on a short vacation/business trip. (My dad went to meetings and the rest of us relaxed). It was really nice. Two of my sisters mostly hung out at the pool with "the most awesome" waterslide and lazy river. My mom, Anna Rose, and I watched a variety of tv shows such as, Hannah Montana, Full House, What not to Wear, etc. (this is a big deal because we don't have cable or anything at home). We all (minus my dad) also had a wonderful lunch with the spouces/children (those who weren't going to the meetings). And later we got shoulder/back massages! It was quite nice. =]

The hotel gave April and Charis plastics cups that they could bring to the bar and have refilled as many times as they wanted (with soda of course:). But every once in a while (when one of them didn't want to go) I would take their "kiddie" cup and go get a refill. I was a little amused though, because I waited for the man to refill my pepsi and no one and any idea that next year I could order a drink other than a soda.

That night room service sent us (free) cookies and milk. And while the milk was warm :( the cookies were possibly the best I'd ever eaten.

Our last night there was "cowboy" night and a big dinner buffet was prepared in the "ballroom" (yes, ballroom).

Here are some pictures from the trip. =]


Our lunch was packed in a cute little container=]

There were little horse shoe confetti pieces on our tables at the cowboy dinner... but Charis and
I had different ideas. =]



A child kicks its legs rhythmically through excess, not absence, of life. Because children have abounding vitality, because they are in spirit fierce and free, therefore they want things repeated and unchanged. They always say, "Do it again"; and the grown-up person does it again until he is nearly dead. For grown-up people are not strong enough to exult in monotony. But perhaps God is strong enough... It is possible that God says every morning, "Do it again," to the sun; and every evening, "Do it again," to the moon. It may not be automatic necessity that makes all daisies alike: it may be that God makes every daisy separately, but has never got tired of making them. It may be that He has the eternal appetite of infancy; for we have sinned and grown old, and our Father is younger than we.
G. K. Chesterton


I love the cartoons by Dave Walker. Find more at



growing up.


When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability...To be alive is to be vulnerable.
-Madeleine L'Engle, "Walking on Water: Reflections on Faith and Art"

A note.


Dear Reader,

do you like me (better than the old one)? Check yes or no


The New Header
(title picture)



"words are useless! Gobble-gobble-gobble! Too much of it, darling, too much! That is why I show you my work!"

This is how I feel. Words never come out how I want. I just... they don't... I wish.....

I like art. No words.

its all about the love.


Uhhhgg. I hate debates! My stomach hurts when people fight. I was trying to work on the computer (which is in the same room as the tv) and my little sister had to watch the debate for extra credit. I couldn't get anything done. I tried not to listen, but it's so stressful. I hate it.
(I thought of this quote from my favorite show: Gilmore Girls)

Lorelai: Love guys, Love okay? Lord of the Rings is all about the love.
little kid: nu uh(?). It's about the destruction of all mankind.
Lorelai: And who doesn't love that?



Happiness is as a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but which if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.
-Nathaniel Hawthorne


I've started sketching this in my painting class. I'm not sure why I chose it though; I'm horrible at hands. But practice is good. Plus I really like the picture. I think I'll add a little color to the butterfly. I've looked up pictures of different kinds of butterlies (from flickr-links below) but I can't decide what my butterfly will look like. hmmm...



Fear less and hope more.
Judge less and accept more.

Jedidiah is for lovers
And sometimes love requires action.

Jedidiah Clothing: Who We Are from Jedidiah Clothing on Vimeo.

Change the conversation.


For my presentation on Exceptional Education, my group showed the youtube video that I posted a few days ago. After we showed that we encouraged everyone to go to and make the pledge to stop saying the word "retarded". I have never liked this word I think it can really be offensive. There are so many people that say it without trying to be mean, I know, but why joke about being "retarded". It can really hurt people's feelings and there isn't any reason for it. I think the video says it best. I hope that more people can understand the impact of that word and stop using it.

If you want to join in, go to and click "pledge and be heard".

youth art program.

This is so inspiring! I want to do something like it.

Artists United for Christ
... a program for youth in Dallas, Texas. Founder Gwen Davis is passionate about employing art to motivate, educate, and help discipline youth.
“Statistics have shown that programs like our art program have a great impact on their minds,” says Gwen. “I’ve seen the change with these children.” ...... Gwen holds four- to six-week-long workshops in the summer for groups of 20 to 25 youth. “I can’t reiterate enough how much the attitudes of our children have changed. They were rebellious — not disciplined enough in some areas, not focused enough in some areas.”
Through the workshops, participants learn to paint landscapes, still-lifes, and abstracts. They learn they have individual worth as well as a marketable skill.
Gwen organizes art exhibits of their work and holds silent auctions. A percentage of the proceeds go into the pockets of the young artists.

To read the full article go to (My story- A passion for art)

Childhood favorites.

(yes, I am going to continue and pretend I didn't miss two more days).

Last night, I shared some of my favorite foods from when I was little with Anna Rose. Scrambled egg with ketchup and pink milk ( or strawberry milk, which was actually my favorite untill I was about 13). I definately remembered them tasting a lot better. Anna liked them though, she woud eat some egg, then point to the pink milk. Then drink some pink milk and point to the egg. I was happy to pass on my childhood favorites.

part 1.

This Sunday at Kid's Church we learned about kindness. Unfortunately, I only had three girls in my small group and we didn't have much time, but we did get some coloring done. The girls are going to give someone their artwork this week. Hopefully next week the rest of my girls will be there and we can do more.



Stormy night.


Tonight there was a big, dark, scary storm (it was pitch black outside at 6:45 (it usually gets dark at 8 something))anyway, my mom and sisters and I decided to have a party night. We figured the lights would go off, so we were going to watch Penelope (my mom's favorite movie) on our portable dvd player, but we started with the game apples to apples.

During this game, Anna Rose crawled around on the floor and stole cards from everyone. Then she would give us cards to put in the middle. (in case you've never played this game, here's what happens: one player puts a green card in the middle, this card has a word such as: lovely. The other players have card with nouns on them, they look for something that could be described as "lovely" and they put it in the middle. Then the person who put the green card down pick up everyone's cards and chooses the one they think is best.

Anywho...Anna's card was picked twice! haha, she was so proud. She would just randomly hand us cards and we didn't know what she gave us, but they were good. Except for one time... The green card said "fragrant". We played that round and when it was over everyone said which card they had put down, there were two left (Anna snuck in two). They were: dirt and wart. haha. she obviously didn't get win that round! I was going to take a picture, but someone used my camera today and I couldn't find it. (Later, the storm lightened up a bit so we watched Penelope on our tv and made cake).

This was a good day. I got a lot done and had a nice time with my family. I'm sooo excited about the weekend. Now I'm going to go watch Pushing Daisies. =]



So, tomorrow I'm skipping two of my classes (shhh). I don't have anything due in my first class and my second class is painting and I'm almost done with my piece and I don't want to start another one yet. Therefore, tomorrow is the perfect day to skip. This has been an especially hard semester and I'm exhausted. My weekends have become "homework time" and I feel like all I do is school or homework.

At first, I was excited when I decided I would skip. I thought I would sleep in, clean my room, make some ipod cozies*, and watch the new episode of Pushing Daisies**(online). Unfortunately, I had a reality check when I remembered all the homework I have....soooo, my happy-no-school-day has become my stay-home-from-class-to-work-on-homework-day. This weekend should be good though because my BFF is coming home and I'll get to hang out with her. =]

So***, I will just get up at the regular time I usually wake up and get my homework done and maybe squeeze some happy things in after.

Now that I've probably completely bored you with my oh so exciting life...I will end with this.

This is the life. Hold on tight.
And this is the dream. It's all I
need. You never know where
you'll find it. And I'm gonna
take my time, yeah. I'm still
getting it right.This is the Life ****

*** I need a new transition word

Anna Rose.